Don't hold back

Last night was horrifying, I saw him walking away without even saying goodbye. He look at me in the eyes with those piercing stare and turn away. The smug on his face slowly disappear. I see myself trying to trace his steps. Trying to catch up with him. But it feels like something is pulling me back. Then I can no longer sense his presence. I saw a knife, and stab myself with it. The knife felt cold as I feel my blood gushing out. Then I can only see red, nothing else.

it was a suicidal dream