why

am I doing this ? I'm not a paranoid, I sure wish I wasn't. Oh crap, he must think I am. My perfect Friday is ruined ! By a simple message that was send to the wrong person. Repeat after me;

I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM,

Okay done. Let's hope that he'll think I'm just joking.
xoxo,
M.

4,3,2,1 LETS GO !

Okay here goes, two main plan for school's holiday : (1) Clean this upside-down room, might add something new here and there. (2) Go to Bangsar with Anna and talk with her like there's no tomorrow ! A drama is soon to be published this Friday, thank god I'm not one of the actor/actress. Why you might ask ? Because Idayu's the director ! Her dialog's horrible, no offense but it's the truth. I should be studying for tomorrow's exam. No, slash that. I HAVE to. But naaahhh I don't really care about exams. Haha.


Ah seeing this makes me smile, but he's actually sick in this picture. Now he's so fat but I still love him (: Dyana gave us a card just now, one for each. And she also made this origami paper folding, that's so sweet of her. She wrote something like our friendship will never ends. Haha so I'm going to write about my friends who are always there for me.

Dyana :

Okay let's see, I've known her since i'm in form 2, we sits next to each other. What i like about her is that I can make jokes that only she gets it. We would laugh our ass off while other people don't get it. You could say that we think alike, and I love her for that. She is one of the most stylish people I have ever seen ! I love you Dyana (:

Awateef :

I spend most of my time with her, making craps out of ourself ! She likes to sing, mostly old, raya or rempit songs that makes it stuck in our head until Awaina dreams of going to Iklim's concert. Hahaha ! :D I like eating nasi lemak with her at school. I think that I told almost all my problems at her. Why ? Because i trust her (:

Awaina :

My dear neighbour, I met her in form 1. She's the one who you could lean onto. She can really brighten your day with her smile (and also her shining braces. haha :D) And guess what ? She has this nerdy picture of me in form 1 ! She could have blackmail-ed me with those picture, but she didn't. So i love her for that. Haha.

Iley :

I can tell her anything that I want because she's a very good listener ! She'll always be there for me through thick or thin. She can bake very well and she's a bit childish that makes her look cute. But when she's mad, don't ever cross the line. Getar weehhh -_- And she's also the smartest between me and my friends. I love you mok !

Wawa :

She's the fairest one and I love her hair ! I can get really high with her, haha. What i love most about her is she's independent and her strong guts. To me she's not afraid to do anything, you go girl ! :D And like Iley, if Wawa is in a bad mood, don't ever ever try to pissed her off. It's like you're digging your own grave, haha. Muahxxx (hahahaha RC 4EVA !)

Nik Anis :

Our baby ! She's so petite okay, like the size of a form 1. Haha she's very very very nice and to me she has the most sporting family ever. She looks great in anything that she wears, even in a simple t-shirt (: I really like having her as a friend, because she takes care of me and I love her hair ! It's so soft and silky, gah jealous. I feel like cutting it ;) I love you nik baby ! :D

And last but not least,
Anisa :

I miss her so much because we're not in the same class anymore. She always, I repeat, always makes me laugh. I always tell her anything that's bothering me and I miss the moment where she'll hug me when I cry. Anisa, RINDUUUUUUUU ! :(

I couldn't live without them, they are the reason why I smile every time i came to school. I love you guys so much.

mika
xoxo

wishlist

gahh Forever 21, here i come ! Note to self, cut down useless spendings !

mika
xoxo

why so serious ?

"Me And You, Setting In a Honeymoon,"

Just got back from seeing Arief, Ijen and Ariff. Arief said to wait for him at Starbucks section9. After half an hour later, he arrived. We talked and talked and something embarrassing happens, that includes my Frapucino Green Tea. Hahaha then Ariff and Ijen arrived. Ariff get's cold because he's wearing shorts and it's like freezing in there ! Oh kesian ;-) Then we decided to hang out somewhere else, saw Azam and ask him to give us a ride on his black, sleek BMW. Arief and Ariff (haha it' weird writing that) gives me a new name, Fatimah / Umaira. I was like wtf ? hahahah :-) I wanna meet Syib but he haves tuition class. Bummer -_- But heck it was fun ! And they makes me laugh all the time. So yeah i feel good now. And and my kitten is healthy now ! Alhamdulillah. I'm looking forward to seeing them again. Bye !


Mika
xoxo

Goodnight, Sayang.

"If i had one wish,"

I don't have luck with cats. Most of 'em dies as i grow up. As a child, I don't care about death. All i want to do is live good and don't fucking care about anyone else. But now I know what it feels when losing something important to you. You'll miss them because you won't see them anymore. Then you'll start feeling lonely. My kitten is sick and the doctor says we'll see if he heals tomorrow. I have lose 2 kittens this few weeks. God, please don't let me lose one more. I don't want to say goodnight again.

Mika.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

"heartbroken, you know the drill."

I wish Fareq is here with me, so he can says 'chill out lah, this is nothing yet compared to what i have been through'. My throat becomes dry after knowing all those things, my finger feels numb and most of all, i feel so ...... pathetic. M'mm i've said it. The phone rings, i closed my eyes. Again, i look at the screen. It's 'that' guy. I set the phone to silent mode. And finally started to feel calm again. But deep down inside, everything's still not right.

mika.