Monday, June 29, 2009

Forgive me lord, for I have sinned

Urgh my life is in a complete mess (!) I need to get a hold of myself.

Sunday, June 28, 2009


The morning after,
This weekend is very tiring (!) For starters, I went to Amal's house in Saturday for a wedding reception. Went there with Ili, Awateef, Diyanah and Nik ; le girlfriends. Had a VERY good laugh. Then we all drop by Ili's house. Snap a few pictures :-) Around 9, Afiq pick me up and he drove to stone cafe. Ordered a char kuew teow that I didn't even finish half of it. Ikram came and join us.

We all decided to go to Cineleisure to kill the time. Transformers' ticket are only available at 3.10 am. Since we have nothing else to do, we bought it and wait for 3 hours for the movie to begin -.- Hang at Mcd, then Khaidir and these 2 guys (I can't remember their name) arrive. I was tired by then as I was helding myself from sleeping.

The guys were funny, most of the things they said makes me laugh. I already miss hanging out with them *laughs

At 3.10 am, we went inside the cinema. The movie starts around 3.30 am. I almost fall asleep but Afiq manage to keep me awake. He tried to talk to me a few times to make sure that I am still up. Haha thanks yeah ? :-) The movie was great, currently thinking of watching it again. Bumblebee is so 'effin cute (!) Transformers end around 6.20 am. Ikram drove back home. By the time we reach Shah Alam, it was almost 7. And I am still wide awake. I wanted to go home at 8, so in the meantime me and Afiq hang around at Bukit sec 7.

When it's 8 am, he send me back home. Then I forgot that my phone is with him -.- Sleep until 12 am, had my breakfast/lunch. Get back to sleep and wake up around 5. Going to buy dinner after this, and will drop by at Afiq's house to pick my phone.

Friday, June 26, 2009


Tag 10 people after you're done!

I have. . . (a point for each one)

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. received a ticket.
6. been to rehab
7. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.

1. dressed gothic
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.

Grand Total: 64

If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [im a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]'
If You Have more than 70..Write [i should be dead]

hm I should be in jail by now. Haha

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Fortune Telling



Finished reading Eclipse last night so I went to section 9 and returned it to Shidy (whose hair is growing so quick, the last time I see him, his hair was short) Then he let me borrow his Breaking Dawn ; the last book of Twilight Saga. Might as well start reading it tonight.

I am still having a slight headache. *sighs

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


We have so many things in common, why did you have to go ?
I am tired of fighting with him. I gladly choose to just breathe, and wait until the memory of me and him disappear. He don't have to protect his girlfriend anymore, I know better. So goodbye, It's been fun while it lasted. Take care.


Currently wondering how in the world can my mother cope living with A lazy arse in this house ? Even I can't stand it. Go get a life, will you ? Hmph fuckers.

Reading : Eclipse ; Borrowed from Shidy.

Sunday, June 21, 2009


Friday : drove around Shah Alam with Ili and Fatnad. Picked Fir and send him to DEMC. Borrow Shidy's Eclipse. Went to Bukit Jelutong. Hang around at the lake that is full of memories with him. Drove back to Shah Alam, picked Fir at Pelita and send him to his house. Waited until Ili's sister come to fetch her then send Fatnad to tuition class. Go to sunway with Mhmmd Arf around 8.40 pm. Ate Carl's Jr. I went back home at 2.

Saturday : Went to Guardian first thing in the morning to buy hair mask. Pass by Fir's house, see him for a while. Drove straight back home. Take a nap. Messaged Awateef, whether she want to go out for a while. Pick her up and talk for a bit. Awateef's father ask us to pick Fahim at section 2. Sent both of them home. Drop by at my house, change my outfit then Awaina invites me to hang around at Padang Sec 7. I arrive there and sit for a while until a few more lads arrive.

Tag Sira and Fatnad to Bukit 12. Took some pictures together, share our secrets and laughs. Afiq Zulhady pick me up around 9 for dinner. He drove to Extreme Park and eat at Burger King. Then he drove around Subang Jaya, Damansara, Bukit Jelutong and Shah Alam just to kill the time because I'm too afraid to go home since the house is empty. He is so 'effin funny, I crack up whenever he says something. He also have this talented gift of knowing how to talk in so many different accent. My stomach even hurts because I was laughing so hard :-) Drop by at Mcd because I want to drink some Milo. Then he sent me back at 4.

Sunday : Drove to KFC to buy breakfast/lunch. Eat, watch tv, and here I am. Updating this sick blog. Hah I'm famished (!)

Since my family are not at home these few days, my eating habit has completely change. I eat rarely, I drink Soy milk most of the time to keep me full. And if I am really hungry, I would go to some restaurant but end up didn't eat anything because then I don't feel like eating. And I spend most of my money on the car's fuel. I forgot to ask The King for the credit card plus he didn't leave me any money to survive in this cruel world HAHA. 70 ringgit for the car's fuel in 3 days ? That's absurd ! I should most probably ask for a refund from The King.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009


He is my walking sun- slowly dimmed as time goes by. Soon the light is no more, only the darkness is there, smirking at me.

Robert Pattison

He's just pure gold (!)


Singular Sensation

Monday, June 15, 2009

Looking back

He is not in love with me - it was undeniably painful.

I was amazed by how he makes me feel whole the first time we met. I promised myself that I will close my heart to men after my last painful break-up. But he caught me off guard. I break the promise I have made that soon, will break me. There is something about his soft but inviting scent that lingers on my mind. I then decided to speak my mind, I confessed to him. He only shrugged. He is not ready for commitment. My heart sank, it feels as if I was thrown to a raging waves. There is only two choice, wait for him, or move on. I decided to keep on trying to survive this raging waters and wait.

He once took me to this place, a calm and peaceful lake. Just like how I feel when he is by my side. He put his warm arms around my waist. I closed my eyes and inhale his scent. I try to remember his smell, and lock it inside my head. Perhaps I know that someday I would not be as close to him like I was back then. The moment he sat next to me in the driver's seat is always memorable. I always feel like I can only hear his voice even though the hum of the engine and the music is there to accompany us. Months pass by since I confessed. Still there is no sign that I will hear what I want from him. I keep on waiting. I paid no attention to other men that come my way. Only he means the most to me.

I have changed- I do believe so. Ever since he appears in my life, I become more.. pathetic. I tried every single thing to make him fall for me. Then I starts to think. Is he right guy for me ? Why am I waiting for him ? I shook all those thoughts violently. Maybe my inner part is right. Maybe I should just give in. Maybe.

I made it clear to him- in case he forgotten, that I am still waiting for him. And I will wait until he is ready. To my horror, he replied that he love me like his sister only and he is blessed to have a best friend like me. The pain in my chest seems unbearable and I remember hearing myself crying again. I starts to feel sorry for myself. I questioned myself, why did I do all this that I end up hurting myself ? I try my best to erase him from my mind. As if he never existed. Sometimes I can still smell his scent. And all our memories start to come again. My life was never the same as before. I cry myself to sleep, and woke up feeling down.

Maybe there is hope. Maybe if I waited a little longer, he might change his mind. I have to make another decision. Give up and lose this war, or keep on waiting for something that I am not even sure of. The pain of falling in love and being rejected went pass through my body, pulling me under. And I did not resurface.

Goodbye, I love you

Friday, June 12, 2009

Dree Dressing

Long hair, sensual lips.

Real Madrid

Ronaldo and Kaka went to Real Madrid ? What have the world turn into ?!

I am evil Homer. I am evil Homer.

1. What are your current obsessions?
Shoes, Torres, i-D, Soya bean milk, Bandage skirt, Fringe bags, Simpsons Hit & Run, Guitar Hero 2. What songs are currently on constant repeat? Lover's Thing -Ciara ft. The Dream 3. What is your favorite food? Chicken premium at William's. Heavenly (!) 4. Favorite smell? CK Eternity + guys = orgasm (!) 5. What are you wearing today? Acid-wash jeans, Black long sleeve top & those bondage-like heels. 6. Why is today crappy? 3 more days until school's up. 7. What would you like to learn to do? Guitar. 8. What is the last thing you bought? Soy milk 9. What is your most challenging goal right now? Chasing chief Wiggum - Simpons Hit & Run 10. What is your must have piece for the summer? maxi dress & a couple of bright-colored numbers. 11. What would you like to have in your hands right now? Money..... and more soy milk. 12. What would you like to get rid of? Excess sweating 13. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? Milan 14. Plans for the summer? Cut down shopping, spend more time baking and decorating cupcakes. 15. Who would you like to meet? Decarnin, I'd like to wear one of his cult peaked-shoulder Balmain jackets. Oh the bliss (!) 16. Favorite label/shop? Balmain, Marc Jacobs, Louis Vuitton, Yves Saint Laurent 17. If you had 10,000 to spend right now, what would you spend it on? Shoes, more clothes, lens 18. What are you going to do after this? Download some songs and may be going to Tesco. 19. What would you love to see come back to fashion? As Eleena says, I'll leave it to the experts but I do love to see Yves Saint Laurent's Cage boots stays on the runway . 20. Who do you tag? You

Tagged by Eleena

Saturday, June 6, 2009

I can't help falling in love with you,


It was love at first sight, ehehehe.. I don't need them boys, just leave me and my shoes !

Thanks for the memories,

Wanted to buy a new heels so I head to Sunway with the homies. As usual, I cropped my face because I always look as if I was on bong in pictures like these. And whoa, look at the size of that thigh (!) Need.To.Workout. I bought a pair of heels [current love (!)] and a fringe bag. Going lunch with the homies tomorrow then hang around afterwards. Might be going out with Mush and Sasa on Monday.

Mush and Shidy invites me to a bbq for Spade's crew just now. But I didn't go because I don't have any transport. Urgh just one more week to go until school's up.

Friday, June 5, 2009

I see nothing but black

"The end for Liverpool ?"

After a few years of not winning any title, it seems that Liverpool is facing some serious debts. Making it hard to keep the best players in Anfield. This will lead to Liverpool losing more match and soon get kicked out of the 'Big 4' clubs (Manchester United, Arsenal, Liverpool and Chelsea)

Who knows, maybe someday Liverpool's point will be lower than Blackburn Rovers (in EPL or other leagues) It is estimated that Liverpool's debt is 86 million pound. Shit, shit, shit. How I wish Liverpool's as rich as Manchester City.

So goodnight, hope that everything went out alright

After 8 months of liking him, I am proud to say, that I am on my way to forget him. Kudos to myself.

What I did this week :

1. Cleaned my room
2. Eat so many new foods
3. Went to see my friends
4. Ps2 marathon
5. Saw Liyana's sugar glider (do I spell it right ?)
6. Met many new faces
7. Listen to a few new tracks
8. Woke up late
9. Make my own breakfast everyday (scrambled eggs and sauteed mushrooms)
10. Bought a hair straightening iron.

I won't stand in your way, let your hatred grow


Went to see Mush, Sasa, Shidy, and Faiz at BK today.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Now my feet won't touch the ground,

School holiday's up (!) Went through a busy busy week. For a starter, I went karaoke-ing with DH, WA and FA. Sing my heart out and DH cracks me up at the end of the singing session. Haha

MK, DH & WA :-)

Then on Tuesday, I went to my uncle's house to meet my cousins and spend an hour or two there. After that I followed my sister and my brother to Bentley near The Curve to find the perfect guitar with an amp for my brother. Ate some ice cream at Baskin. Decided to have dinner near Wondermilk and arrived at home around 8.

Torres (!) I was drooling when I saw this ad.

On Wednesday, I went to Sunway with DH. Met NK, DD, LYN and IK there. Spend a few minute hugging DD since this is like the first time she went out with me. I bought 2 top and a flip flop. Bump into MSH, SHF, SS and their friend (which I don't happen to know) DH, NK and DD went home early so I hang with MSH and the others.

MSH buys me a green tea frappucino at Starbucks so thanks yeah ? :-) Tell SHF about lots of things including my secret with *ehemmm. Around 6, SPKY and his friends arrive so I went to hang out with them. FKHR is there too (!) I haven't seen him for a while so we talk like there's no tomorrow. He even give me a few advice in forgetting MA.

At 7.30, SPKY and his friends decided to get back to BJ. I followed them since I'm meeting MA there. SPKY send me to Dewan Guthrie and met MA. He drove to Shah Alam Mall to take a picture then dinner at Pizza Hut.

After that I drove his car around section 7 and 8. Didn't talk to him much. Went back home around 10 pm. Today I decided to stay at home because I was tired from going out. FTND decided to drop by my house so we hang around and chat on a few things.

At 6.30, FHM, STH, PN and this one guy came over. Talk talk talk, laugh laugh laugh, and they decided to go home around 7.15.

p/s : Sorry for the grammar mistakes and stuffs. Plus there's too many names to write so I kinda skip on a few names. I manage to highlight DH's name before I'm too lazy to highlight the other initials. So forgive me. Dang it I'm famished (!)

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